It’s a couple of weeks back from Munich and the good thing for me is that work isn’t busy at the moment so that I can ease into it slowly after coming back from holidays. Our friends, Jaimie, Ally, Ben and Kate, all have come back from holidays also and last night at the pub we all shared our stories, before Ben stole the show with his encounter with the bobbies while photographing around London. I won’t write about it here, cause that’s his story. Jaimie and Ally went to Naples while Ben and Kate went to Amsterdam. We all agreed that it would be so much fun if we all went to Amsterdam together. It occured to me last night that the last time we were together in Australia, was my birthday, when we met up at the Art House. It’s amazing where we all ended up, right here in London. Knowing that it’s only tempoary I really want to make the most of it while I’m here. Thoughts of doing a gallery opening again pops into my head. Running my own business could be a definite possiblity also. I feel that I need a project to keep myself occuppied and both of those things would keep me busy and provide me with a challenge that is missing in my life at the moment.

Maybe it was coming back from such a great holiday, or maybe I just had too much time to think, but I’ve been feeling rather empty the past couple of weeks. Debbie said that I should write down my feelings when I can so that we can discuss it, or even write things down in this blog. I’ve gone for the later. I’m never any good when I have not much to do. I need a challenge and I feel that if I’m not working on somes sort of project I lose touch with myself. I feel detached and alone. Am I just hiding behind being busy rather than dealing with something really important that I need to take care of. Not that I know what that is exactly. I will soon get back my weekends once the marriage seminars end in a couple of weeks. After that I think I need to start on a project to keep myself occupied. I did promise Deb that I’ll take her to Salsa lessons. Thats really for her. For me however, I would really love to finish my Flash Actionscript course, think about starting my own business and do a gallery opening in London. I think that should keep me busy for a while.

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